This morning I rode through my developement then out to route 33 through Twin Rivers and over the New Jersey Turnpike. It was a very relaxing ride, it allowed me to clear my head and get some tension out of me. I need to do this more often. There was very little traffic, so I was very content riding and not having to share the roads with cars and trucks. It was warm and muggy and the winds were as strong as they normally are around here. Where I live is a very flat area and much more windy than my old home, and I thought that was a windy location.
Thursday, June 30, 2016
Sunday, June 26, 2016
I Feel so much better mentally and physically after a good ride. The riding relieves my pain and helps a huge amount with dealing with my grief. I think the more I put into my riding the less anger and anxiety I have. I don't think I ever stop thinking about David and his children, and how hard it is for Kate to deal as a single parent. I always felt dealing with a problem head on was the best method, but I have been slapped down as I know there isn't a solution to my grief and I will have to learn to deal with it. Easier said than done! The more time I have to think the worse things get, as I am a type A personality. Everyone says people deal with grief in their own way, but I wish I could find a way to do that. This Father's day was just a nightmare but yet I was able to see my daughter and my grandchildren which made me feel good but very depressed. I promise myself everyday that I will try my best to get better and not take my anger out on others. This event has changed everything and if I don't do something soon I will just crash and burn. Well enough of the sadness! My ride today was nice other than the crazy people on the road. I had a guy driving with his both side mirrors folded in and there was no way he could see who was alongside him. I kept my distance.
Tuesday, June 21, 2016
I had a bad weekend as it was the first Father's Day without my son, but I needed a ride to help with the emptiness.
I knew my mind needed to get out of this rut and riding always helps to keep my mind occupied, so off I went this morning. I rode through my gated community then hit the local roads for a ride through the neighborhood that ajoins my home. It was a hot and windy ride but I felt much better when I got home. I have to try to push myself for both my mental health and to help with my back pain. It is amazing how a little over ten miles can do for you mind and body.
Wednesday, June 01, 2016
Friday, May 27, 2016
This morning I took my first ride of the season I went the back roads to Etra Lake park and road the sandy trail, it isn't a suitable ride for a trike. There were areas that were so sandy that the tires just wouldn't grip so I was forced to ride the grass on the edge. I then left the park and road local roads back home. I then came home to meet my wife for a 2.5 mile walk. I had some bad leg cramps while riding but worked through them.
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
This past last 7 months have been a living hell, it feels like my whole world has just dropped away. On Nov 30th my 36 year old son died from Cancer, and it has been a total nightmare for his wife, his children both very young, his sister, my wife, and myself. I have no desire to do much of anything, so the bad weather we have been having has in no way interfered with me riding. There is a change in the weather coming next week, so maybe I will try to get out and ride. Maybe it will help with my mood, no mother or father should have to lose a child. I expected to go a long time before my children, and I am just very angry at the world. I feel like there is no God and if there is he is only there for one reason to hurt and put fear in human beings. My son was a good person and was always there to help people in need, so there was no reason that I should believe that if there is a God there was a reason for his murder of my son. I always believed in a supreme being, but now I don't have the place in my heart or mind to think that if there was a God this world would not be in the shape it is now. So I have no use for organized religion, but I have no problem if you have a love for your religion, as long as it is helping you get the comfort you need. I know this is a very depressing post, and it will be the last one of this type. I am just venting and I am sorry to anyone I have hurt by this.
Tuesday, September 08, 2015
Decided to try the other trail in Etra Park, but asked a couple for the directions and they gave me the directions which took me to the Twin Rivers bike path which is much shorter, so I made up the lost miles on local roads. This time I was brave and crossed the NJ Turnpike and down Route 33.